problem

i'm working in district hospital..
budget given kinda cukup-cukup makan..x mewah sgt la..
my friend that do the purchasing pn pening kepale nk manage the money so that it can last until the next budget given..
x salahkn die but sometimes geram sbb aku yg jage klinikal pening kepale dan x larat nk cari pnjm ubat merata bile ubat out of stock..
some ubat u can see that (with the use of ur clinical knowledge, eventho u x involve sgt in klinikal) it will be use constantly and the demand is high, so how about buying it banyak2..hmm?????
when u buy the drug sikit2, kite x leh nk bajet 'owh bulan ni 3 org je pt nk pakai ubat ni'..
patient will come when they are sick, and kite xleh put a limit to the no of patient present..tup..tup..sorry doctor, ubat ni dah out of stock..hmm...
da cakap byk kali, da bgtau byk kali jgk, klu slalu sgt bgtau nnt terase pulak,nnt kate kite ni kacau keje die...but please, im already tired about this matter..i know ur problem but please understand my problem too...
so, ubat yg mmg high demand, constantly use, cannot be predicted how many it will be used, aku rase x kesah beli bebyk as long as x keputusan ubat..how about it huh?
about the ubat pakar, pn dh x tau nk control camane sbb mmg pt meningkat, x kn nk halang pt from seeing the specialist, x kn nk halang the specialist from doing their job, but still from our side can la control nye sedikit sebyk, tp klu dah condition pt tu mmg memerlukan ubat tu, mmg xleh nk kate x leh la kn...(pt pun tolong la compliance dan pantang ape 2 yg patut so that ur condition x worsen..it is also a factor that contribute to the matter above)

all of these things made me depressed all the time..jgn one day aku kene depression sudah..i don't want to be one of the person that on antidepression..
this matter didn't give me satisfaction in delivering my service to the client and my passion to my work slowly fading away!!!!! i love my job...really.. but things have limits..and mine maybe nearly to the limit..
please Allah...help me..guide me..permudahkan segala urusan ku..

p/s to myself: betulkan niat kerana Allah, ikhlaskan hati kerana Allah, insya Allah semuanya okay..